The Aftermath

It was a long weekend. A very long weekend. I was not a happy person at work today. I was feeling the pain of my fellow brother and sisters in Christ and can’t even imagine what today has been like. Our prayers, hopes and warm thoughts go to those enduring this maniacal nightmare. This will be my last post on this subject as my emotions have been getting a workout as the rollercoaster of events have spilled out from the television screens and computer monitors. First, the updates that we have so far.

He was on the computer posting about this for several months on a board dedicated to former members of The Church as a whole. When this thing went south early on Sunday, those that had been talking with him suddenly realized what they had in their midst.

I would declare this a PR disaster for said group, but some tried to reach out to him. My emphasis is in bold.

You Christians brought this on yourselves,” Murray wrote on a Web site for people who have left Pentecostal and fundamentalist religious organizations. It was the most recent posting of his on the site, dated Sunday, December 9 at 11:03 a.m.

In the Web writings, which are now being investigated by Colorado Springs Police, Arvada Police and the FBI, Murray warned, “I’m coming for EVERYONE soon and I WILL be armed to the @#%$ teeth and I WILL shoot to kill. …God, I can’t wait till I can kill you people. Feel no remorse, no sense of shame, I don’t care if I live or die in the shoot-out. All I want to do is kill and injure as many of you … as I can especially Christians who are to blame for most of the problems in the world.”

If the time on the posting is accurate, it was posted after the 12:30 a.m. shooting Sunday morning in Arvada and before the 1:10 p.m. Sunday afternoon shooting in Colorado Springs. Murray’s first posting on the day of the shootings is time stamped 10:50 a.m. It begins with a goodbye to those he has corresponded with for the past several months.

“You guys were awesome. It’s time for me to head out and teach these (expletive) a lesson.” Murray continued, “Thanks for listening and all … even though even many of you ex-Pentecostals don’t understand ……(sic) See you all on the other side, we’re leaving this nightmare behind to a better place.”
Then Murray posted the 11:03 writing quoted above. That writing mirrors written statements by Columbine gunman Eric Harris. After that final posting, one of the other Web site users realizes what’s happened and wrote, “Oh no. I just saw this on the news.” Another wrote, “Yes, please don’t do it. You’d only make them into martyrs and yourself into a fanatical, hateful zealot, in the public opinion.” The only other posting that referred to Murray was a user asking everyone to leave the Web site to chat about Murray elsewhere to avoid the media finding out.

I don’t have a link to the said site in question and I really don’t want to have to sort through the crap that probably is posted there to be honest. You have every right to not like a religious group and all…but I wonder what this people on the website really do feel and how far they’ll separate themselves from a homicidal killer who murdered two young women and was intent in destroying more lives in his sick irrational mind.

The story goes on to give this,

Some of the users tried to counsel Murray and one psychologist even offered her services after reading his poem called “Crying all alone in pain in the nightmare of Christianity”. Murray rebuffed her offer. “I’ve already been working with counselors. I have a point to make with all this talk about psychologists and counselors ‘helping people with their pain,'” he wrote.

The question is now who was he seeing, what he told them and how much guilt this person will now be living with if he really was seeing someone for help, which I doubt. Do not forget this fact. This twenty four year old man (I’m 25 and it gave me chills when I heard how old he was) made a conscious decision to plan the murder of the innocents in Arvada and then made his move to Colorado Springs to destroy further in the name of his heartless mission, whatever the hell that was.

I know the family of the murderer has been reeling and I understand where that comes from. Harris and Klebold’s parents were in the same boat when Columbine happened. They’ve taken the right steps in seeking forgiveness and working with Police and the law enforcement community. I cannot imagine the shock and sadness they are experiencing right now.

I pray and hope that people will not praise this man for his horrifying deeds. I pray that the security guard that ended his short reign of terror will continue to be praised for her heroic efforts to save the lives of those in and around the church that day. I hope that people will not seek to further denigrate The Church because of this event and how it has unfolded.

Slapstick Politics has some late breaking stuff about the killer hearing voices. Yes, I kid you not. It’s getting interesting and worse at the same time.

Matthew Murray was kicked out of a missionary training program five years ago for strange behavior, and talked about hearing voices, according to a man who served at the center with him.

Werner, of Balneario Camborius, Brazil, said he had a bunk near Murray’s and that Murray would roll around in bed and make noises. “He would say, ‘Don’t worry, I’m just talking to the voices,’ ” Werner said. “He’d say, ‘Don’t worry, Richard. You’re a nice guy. The voices like you.'”

You can read updates at the following websites, but I’m going to ask (they don’t have to do it) that as a group of Authors here at Denver Metroblogs that unless we suffer another attack that we look forward towards hope at the end of the tunnel and simply end rehashing this story here over and over. You can disagree and post away.

Slapstick Politics

This song has been playing on my ITunes several times a day.

3 Comments so far

  1. Rob (unregistered) on December 11th, 2007 @ 10:02 am

    Hi there. I’m a member of the website that the shooter posted on, and just so you know, when the posts first went up, many people contacted the FBI immediately to report on what they knew. We were chatting about it off the board in case the site was mentioned in the media, because traffic would most likely pick up. That’s all… not trying to hide anything.

  2. Aaron DeLay (unregistered) on December 11th, 2007 @ 10:11 am


    I appreciate the comments. My anger and emotions were running on fumes last night when I typed this stuff out, so my words were a tipped a little sharper than they usually would be around here.

    My apologies for the insinuations that came across. Thank you for stepping forward.

    As a disclaimer, I can’t confirm Rob being who he says he is since this is the internets and all, but I’m taking a step to trust.

    Thanks again.

  3. Rob (unregistered) on December 11th, 2007 @ 10:36 am

    No problem. And though some of the stories are portraying us as an anti-Christian site, that is far from the truth. We try to help folks who have been hurt by the pentecostal church. Many of us are still Christians, though some are not.

    All of us who knew Matthew were just as shocked as everyone else was. It’s a horrible, horrible situation and I pray that we can all help in the lives of those around us who hurting as bad as Matthew was.


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